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Day 80: Who are you? Write a letter to yourself in the future.

Here it is, the last one, day 80. Though I’ve tried to answer these everyday, I’ve lagged a couple days here and there. But, I’ve finished it, nonetheless. To answer this last question, Im going to try to be as honest, and open as i can permit myself to be.

I’m Sabrina Katigbak- born in the states, raised in the Philippines but now back in Socal. I’ve always had a comfortable life, never too much and never too little. In the earlier part of my life, I was surrounded by a large sum of friends but when I moved, I was surrounded by a big family. Everything I’ve gone through in life has made me who I am today. Im strong despite what I may think, deep inside, I know im strong. I’ve gone through,struggled and won through things people would never understand. I love my friends yet sometimes, I can be selfish. I know what I want but most of the time, I feel like I don’t deserve it, or that I deserve less. Why? I’ll tell you when I find out. Im filled with insecurities, maybe that’s why sometimes, my presence is so strong..But I try to not be like that. I try to stay collected and keep my manners. Most people see me as one of the guys which I don’t mind. I wish they saw me as a girl who wants to be like-liked and not just someone who can be roughed around and can take it. I’ve liked and been liked-non of which at the prefect time. I’m hoping to save myself for someone who’s worth it. Welp, a letter to the future me, I HOPE YOU’RE BETTER THAN WHO YOU WERE WHEN THIS WAS WRITTEN. You better have done something with yourself and you better have gained some self confidence, you noob. Look at you, everyone always gives you kind words yet you push them away. Don’t. Let people appreciate you instead of always thinking that people are just saying it. Most of the time, they probably are but let yourself feel good every once in a while. Don’t forget to give value to what’s truly important-friends,family and GOD. Have an end goal but don’t get lost in the journey. Stop thinking why you cant and start thinking why you can. Stop making excuses and start making progress. Stop walking forward while looking back, instead walk forward and focus on your goal. Dont worry and rush in finding “someone”. He’ll come. You have to love yourself before others can love you.

Day 79: What do other people see when they look at you?

Depends. Some people say they see me as “one of the guys” other say they see me as a “pretty girly girl” and others say im funny. I don’t really have a negative stigma around me-which is good

Day 78: Post a picture of yourself from last year. How have you changed since then?

How have I not? This was from junior year; looking back, it seems so long ago. Last year, I had different friends, a different mindset, I was chubbier, I was more immature, I was jobless and license-less. I was…in every sense, younger. Today, Though I have much more to grow, I have new friends, strengthened relationships with old ones, I’d like to think Im more mature both physically and mentally, and Idk, I just have a better understanding of life. At this point in my life, i truly feel like im Growing up.

Day 77: Write a letter to the reflection in the mirror.

YOU. you look at yourslef and think “meeh”. Everyone always says you don’t give yourself enough credit. Why? Do you not see your potential? do you not see what you have to offer? Do you not see what everyone else see’s? To be honest, I don’t. Im not trying to sound pathetic or glum but i really dont. I mean, I know im a nice person and I know i can look good if i put myself together but so can every other girl. I dont see why Im any different.the way i see it, that’s why no one really chooses meee. I dont know, as much as I love life, im scared of it. Im scared of what’s to come, im scared of the mistakes im gonna make and im scared that things may not always turn out okay. If there’s anything I’ve learned, as long as you keep your head up and face things with a brave face, you’ll get through and things will work out. So to myself, keep your chin up, keep that brave face for whatever trials and difficulties come your way, things can always get better. Like they say, once you’ve hit rock bottom, there’s no where to go but up :)

Day 76: The reason you believe you’re still alive.

God still has a plan for me. Friends to make, lives to change, mistakes to make and a life to live.

Day 75: Your favorite quote

Public opinion is a weak tyrant compared with our own private opinion.

Day 74: Seven secrets about yourself.

I could do bullshit things and be fake but I wont.

truth is..
1.lmseftiucy
2.gsdiureltiveonareihafd
3.rpuieg
4.tovditnieneeinhuroogkomgdh
5.rmpnsoynehaeettyoadatdvniknlismlem
6.eiehpusptmaybimnot.
7.twjsiatuieeolknetfoelnmseocasretsoomlesde

Dont try to understand it, but there, my secretssss.

Day 73: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

the book thief. It gave me a glipse of what true hardships,trials and struggles people during the holocaust went through.

Day 72: Something or someone you definitely could live without.

People that bring constant negativity into my lifeee. feel freee to walk out. anytime :) lol

Day 71: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you tried living without it/him/her.

something:technology
someone:god

Day 70: Somewhere to go before you die.

GREEEEECE. please.

Day 69: LOL. For this one, talk about immaturity.

Immaturity’s definition varies from person to person. For me, i feel that someone who is immature is someone who has not gone through hardships in life-or someone who has but has chosen not to use them to their advantage. Being immature to me is not knowing that there is a time and place for everything. It is when people act a certain way without putting much thought to it. Everyone, to some degree is immature-myself included. I feel that no one will ever be completely mature because growing and learning is a life long process.

Day 68: The best teacher you’ve ever had. What made them so good?

it would be my 7th grade homeroom teacher;sir. de pedro. He was honestly like a dad to all of us. Most of the time, guy teacher’s are awk but not him. the way he treated us, talked to us and everything was so fatherly that everyone loved him and looked to him for advice. I remember he found out that i was talking to this guy and he legit wanted to meet him. So i did and he asked if my parents knew and all that. It just made me feel good that someone was looking out for me and he was one hell of a teacher too! He was funny, good at his job and idk, he was for sure underpaid for what he brought tot the table. I miss him :(